Life Sucks!

I realize that this is not a very catchy title but it is my state of mind right now so I will leave it. I have been in conversation with a church and thought things were going well but apparently not. I really thought that this is what God wanted me to do. It is have been a long time and nothing is happening. I just don't know anymore. I wish God would be a little clearer on things. I am open to whatever it is that I am supposed to do but I must be reading signals wrong. I AM GOOD AT WHAT I DO! What is wrong with these people????? Okay...I feel marginally better!

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I have started using facebook and I like it mroe than mysp0ace or xange. It seems easier, which for me is crucial. I need simple. This seems to me.

New Goals

I have been setting new goals for myself lately and actually sticking to them....okay so it is only one. I have started reading something by a Christian author each morning before I start reading just whatever novel I am in. I am a reader and I do quite a bit of it but if I read at least one chapter in something that may teach me something, I feel better about my day. I have read some interesting things and I think they are giving me calm about my life.
I mean....I am still looking for a ministry position and I know that a position is available. I have had many interviews in this area! I know that God will lead me where he wants me to go. I am finding myself getting more and more involved at church and I don't know if that is a good thing. I keeping hoping I will be gone soon. However, I just keep at it and know that God will work it all out. Ultimately, I have no choice but to wait. It is not like I can control God or anything. As much as I want to move on (I mean....not only am I 40 and living with my mom, but I really need a new car!) I can't rush the process so I make the best of it and am at peace. It is not like I can say....okay God...Now! That would just make him laugh.

It has been amazingly long since I wrote on here. I have been out of town and had no access to a computer which was nice. I did some soul searching while I was away and came to this conclusion.....I am still meant to be in ministry. I had an interesting conversation with a pastor who had not met me before this week. She said that I needed to step out and take a risk. That amazing things happen when you do. See....I have not wanted to be a Christian Educator because I didn't think I wanted to do adult education. I mean....what can I possibly have to teach adults? But Debbie suggested that I make that leap and see what happens. I have been tossing it around in my head and praying about it. I think maybe she is right.

God's Plan

It was a good weekend. I did a lot of resting and that is always a blessing. Friday night was a pool party and the summer storms left us alone. Saturday I picked up friends from a mission trip and I am so glad that they got back okay. Yesterday, I did a scavenger hunt for the youth and they had a good time. It was a good balance between rest and work.
As I stated in my last post, I really feel like God has me on the right path. I may be able to expand my horizon's a little but that I am not to make a new career change. This last two weeks, have confirmed that. I was talking to a friend one day and I said in jest what I think would happen. This sense of peace came over me and it was as if God said...."Yes, exactly." So maybe that is what all the waiting is about. However, I must keep it cryptic as it involves someone else. I do not want to cause confusion so I will not mention any more. I will just pray for God's will that that it all come about soon. I think we should clarify, that is my soon, not God's soon!

I thought I would try setting this up and see what happens. I may not keep up with it but we can try. Life has been weird lately.....but I can't tell you why exactly. I have been questioning God's plan for my life and this last two weeks I think God is trying to tell me something. Actually, He may have been trying for longer but who knows.....I tend to miss these messages. The youth pastor is gone and I am running youth ministry....I really feel like God is saying that this is where He still wants me. I have this strong feeling on something with my future but I will keep that to myself as I don't know who will read this!
Other than that.....life is normal and I still wonder when it will all settle down.